As Hard As It Is

You said you cared about me more than any
You said I was the only girl you believed in
You said it was only distance that kept us strangers
You said I was stupid not to excuse behaviors
So I said I can do better

But I wanna know are you the boy you promised me
Or was it all for show so that I’d follow full faith blindly
Is it time to go? Are you almost finished scarring me
So when I let you go it’ll be half as hard as it is to stay

You said I can’t leave you cuz I’m too precious
So I said you don't really love me and you fell to pieces
You said how could I not trust your honor?
You said I was stupid not to excuse behaviors
So I promised myself to do better

I just wanna know: are you the boy you promised me?
Or was it just a big show so that I’d follow full faith blindly?
Is it time to go? Are you almost finished scarring me
So when I let you go it’ll be half as hard as it is to stay?

You see I want to know because I haven’t had the strength to find out
And I just might might be finding that strength now
But I don't want to run back to you if it's harder than this
So is it harder to be lonely or to realize you were all alone to begin with?

So I need to know: are you that boy you promised me?
Was it just this big show so that I’d follow full faith blindly?
Is it time to go? Are you almost finished scarring me
So that letting you go will be twice as hard as it is to stay?
I need to know, is this the way you wanted me?
Was it all for show so that your plan worked perfectly?
I need to know, did you do this all intentionally?
So that letting you go will be twice as hard as it is to stay?